A Bad Day

Hi All,

Today is a bad day.
A bad day is one where I struggle to keep moving. I realized that some of us expend a lot of energy just trying to look normal and stay involved in life. This could be one reason for suicide...the amount of energy expended is phenomenal when what you really want and need is a chance to hit the pause button on life. Halt everything and just lay down for a while without losing anything. But if you pause life, you lose things and people. You may lose your house or car if you don't pay your notes. You may lose you job or school scholarship. You may lose friends if you dont answer the phone, call people back or attend their important life events.

There is a lot of loss if you pause life. You may even lose relationships with family such as children. But the truth is you lose anyway. You expend so much trying to stay in, that you often lose yourself and that is the worst loss of all. So what do I do with my bad day?

Stay in and lose some of myself or check out and lose everything else?